Saturday, October 27, 2012

Enough're going to catch fleas.....

so if you made your way to my blog you probably know I am a super hero....well at least like to feel I am as strong as anyone else and that I truly believe that good will always prevail. You will also know I am gay, married, happy and have been through the ups and downs of life , just like everyone else.
These past few months I learned a lot about myself and this world we live in. I never realized how much hate was flying around ready to pounce if a portal was opened. Like living with a group mentality of well that guy is offensive, racist, homophobic, sexist and got away with it well maybe this will fly. It is sad and there are ten days left till our next President of the United States is elected and I see it as clear as day....will the porthole of hate be large enough to let the wrong guy win?
I cry sometimes thinking about it, not my unwavering view that the good guy Barack Obama will be re-elected but more upset of the ugly faces I have seen during this time.
I grew up knowing I was different and never really felt like I fit in but doing the right thing, the compassionate thing, was clear. I didn't understand I was gay till late in life and when I came out , I let out the secret I may be a minority and I may be different a bit but I love and I contribute and after I saw this clear, obvious part of me everything looked even more crystal clear. I know I ramble and my grammar is far from perfect however my words, my words are true.
I truly thought "oh goody" the Republican party realized this election was going to be a loss so they were only going to sacrifice their most obvious ridiculous candidate and wait for four more years to offer up someone of some merit. I mean the guy who tied his dog to the roof of his car, chased a student through his prep school pinned him down and cut his hair, the guy who got rich while k-b toys went bankrupt. I mean ridiculous. So even after that the 47% video, the non specifics, the out and out flip-flopping and blatant lying and what? I know anyone would be like...he is probably ashamed, crying, sinking in the polls. No....proof reality tv has made us dumb, he is neck and neck and even worse, people I know, people I went to public school with are supporting him. Granted you will say Vicki, you and your vagina are biased, I mean who cares about women's rights? your gay rights? The economy! The economy! Well if a guy says "let Detroit go bankrupt", ships jobs to China he is clearly even after all the other crap still saying he is the worst possible choice. is so frustrating. I believe Obama will win re-election and I am sure Mittens will disappear but I saw it..I saw the hate, the sexism, the homophobia, the racism. I feel even more fueled to live a life of truth with dignity and honor. I urge you all to do the same because if you stand for nothing you will fall for anything...CLEARLY...MITTENS...STOP IT Already! thanks for reading and please vote!!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

I admit my shortcomings.....not the whole cake! (important)

...maybe you can relate or not but you know when you start a diet or make some good changes in your life and you feel pretty great and your fat pants start to get very loose and even your skin feels healthy and you feel good...hell great and there is this confidence that grows that makes you think...I can take home the rest of that cake from a party because I rock and I know portion control now and look how hot I am and then after a shitty day or a bill comes you forgot you still owe..... you find yourself waking up with crumbs on your pj's and swollen fingers...yeah that may have happened.
I kind of woke up finding Mitt Romney in the poll lead.........and he kind of looks like my fat pants.
I admit it, I became actively political for the first time this year. Started volunteering for Obama's campaign, donating, hell we even had a bake sale and then I started to get a little over confident like...yeah the country gets the blatant difference and of course wants the right guy to win...yeah...I'll take the cake home. But getting up again, finding that voice that you worry may ruffle some feathers of people who want to bury their heads in the sand and saying this is important! Very important!
I am not even sure this is his campaign slogan anymore but to answer his question, "Is my life better than four years ago?"
My answer, Hell Yes! You see four years ago, I was cooking, doing comedy, single, and well pretty much broke. I was so broke I had to make a last minute call and instead of renewing my lease, I called my mom to ask if I could move back home with her for the first time since my early 20's till I could get back on my feet. She thankfully let me and with shame I did that,  moved back to my brother's old bedroom and started to pay off the debt that I had accumulated and figure out my next step in life. I am grateful for that year , especially the time I got to spend with my mom. I started my catering business 11 years ago and four years ago I had the worst holiday season I had ever had, so bad I was selling crafty items I made in front of the MET. When I moved back with my mom I got a job teaching as well as my catering to make ends meet. That was my four years ago: single (well I was sleeping in my brother's old twin bed so my prospects were pretty slim), very few catering jobs and with very low budgets, working a million hours in a job I was not passionate about to get back to even.
Fast forward to today, my business is doing great, thankfully have had the best year since starting, married to the love of my life in a state that recognizes our civil liberties as equal, and we are looking to buy a home and move out of our nyc apt in the next few months. So yes my life is better...hell of a lot better. I take none of this for granted and I know that I was fortunate to have the breather that my mom afforded me for the year of my life I stayed with her. I know that , what I do is not glamourous and I work hard and Obama is not with me scrubbing floors at 2am however the economy is better for me. My confidence and ability to live an open, honest life has been changed these last four years and this last year when our President announced he supported marriage equality it meant a great deal. What some people don't get is when you grow up thinking, "I am just not a great joiner" or "I march to the beat of my own drummer", the reality is blending in is nice and being equal in your country you were born and raised in with important, very important! So that covers financial, social, oh what care? Well, when I was 22 I became legally responsible for my father who had just been diagnosed with a brain tumor and was unable to make decisions for himself...six months later he died...a year later I went bankrupt. So it is my understanding with Obama's health care program that would not have happened, my father still would have passed but I would not have been marked with ten years of destroyed credit. So, currently credit in the high 700's. Oh and I am a woman and would go toe to toe with anyone who can honestly give me reason why women should be paid less, and have less say about what happens to their own bodies....that is just ignorant...literally ignorant!
So FOUR YEARS later....MUCH BETTER, thank you! Yes I am proudly supporting the re-election of President Obama...and you should too!
Thanks for reading my very long run-on sentence.